November 2011
October 2011
I need to really not make a big deal out of things that I think are a HUGE DEAL. Chances are it’ll blow over before it get’s even worse than it is, but the realist/pessimist in me, I always see things turning even worse.
hello amazingly awesome day. From the food that I ate to the tea that I drank. I didn’t get much school work done AND I have a presentation tomorrow. I’m slightly very nervous for the presentation. I’m nervous that when I stand up front I won’t be able to articulate what I actually know about the topic. And then I start to explain something and then look at my partner and hopes she continues on because I’m sort of confused.
I don’t plan on letting that happen though, but we haven’t even finished the powerpoint presentation. And I feel like I did most of it, which means I know the material, but ackkkkk…
Today, will be good.
gym……..check
MY FAVORITE FOOD OF ALL TIME (oatmeal+cinnamon+blueberries)………check
found cool thing to fill water bottles at the water fountain…………..awesome.
homework……will by done.
todayyyyyyyy….will be good.
hmm gym or get blood labs done? hmmmmmmmm.. such.. a.. tough… decision………….
gym.tomorrow.morning. right when I wake up. no ifs/ands/butts.
think of a happy place…try to stay calm…stop shaking…no..tears…there is nothing to fear or to be upset about in the happy place… no one to hurt….no self to hurt… nothing to break…calm..down….count to ten…1…2..3..4..5..6..7..8..9..10.. breath…easy…feel each breath remove some tension/anger/fear…in-two-three-four-five-six-seven….out-two-three-four-five-six-seven….
hearty bowl of oatmeal+berries for dinner :)
Not sure whether I should be pissed or disappointed..
I’m going with disappointed. I am disappointed in you. I thought you could keep one promise. One day out of every other day. But you couldn’t. I feel very disrespected and disappointed. And then you wonder why I always seem mad? Huh. Maybe you should assess yourself. Or maybe I should just say bye to you forever. (Not that you would answer b/c “something” came up or some shit). I should just cut all ties, but I feel that I can’t. I have no idea when enough is enough, but I’m positive it’s getting there.
